Conflicted

IMG_20140913_170027098Today is the last day to sign up for the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure in Salt Lake City for $25. Tomorrow it’s $35. I’ve been invited by two good friends to join their teams. The question is…should I do it? I would love to walk with these two ladies, visit with them and feel like I’m a part of a good cause. Plus, I would get a new pink t-shirt. And then I could say that I did it…once. That all sounds great, right? So, why am I conflicted, you ask? Because of where the money goes. I do not believe for one second that the money will go to PREVENTING breast cancer. The thought of someone else I know having to go through what I went through brings tears to my eyes. It saddened me when I would go to chemo and almost all of the chairs would be full. Women have been racing for the cure for decades now and there are more women than ever being diagnosed with this disease. They are not preventing anything. They are not curing anything. I wish they were.

I am weary of trying to get healthy. I juice, smoothie, try to sleep, supplement, fruits and veggies, vitamins and minerals, amino acids and hormones. Am I taking the right form with the right complimentary nutrient at the right time of day for maximum absorption…and that’s just scratching the surface. Studying cancer is exhausting and I was terrible at chemistry (which is why I went into Accounting). No one can tell me that I’m in remission and that I won’t be diagnosed again. In fact, my odds of being diagnosed again have increased due to the treatments I’ve already received. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret those treatments. I wouldn’t have made a different choice if it were presented to me now with the knowledge I’ve gained on the subject of cancer.  I’m just saying that the odds are not in our favor if we keep “Racing for the Cure” instead of “Racing for Prevention.” Having said that, I cannot “Race”.

 

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1 Response to Conflicted

  1. Aunt veda says:

    Amy, go on the walk.

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